To eat or not to eat!!

Well my fight with my weight is going on for a long time now...so much so that I feel "fight" might not be a correct word for it but "war" can be an appropriate one.And in this winning and loosing game ...(well for me most of the time it is gaining game...even though I prefer to loose [:)]) I have reached to a point where my ability to do mathematical calculations of calories has reached a far extreme. When ever I see food the only question that arise is "TO EAT OR NOT TO EAT" along with "100 cal+ 120 + 500= 720 so 1300 -720 = 580" etc etc.

Though when I look back..it does not seem so bad... as this has given me a unique quality of self control along with cautiousness about my well being....And had this not been forced on me by society, I would have still been the same old poor little Pooja whose food choices are mostly biased on the taste and not the contents in it. As this provides pleasure only for small amount of time and painful life ahead(with all diabetes, high BP and arteries clogging) ...Same as judging the person based on his/her outward appearance and not based on pure intentions and thoughts .

Solitude

The importance of solitude is seldom understood in our asian lives , though we are the biggest preacher of it. Most of the time, in the times of difficulty we try to find people to blame things on , to find support from or talk things out. But have we ever given a thought that talking to ourself can be the most rewarding thing. I agree that discussing things out with others do give us different perspective, but talking to ourself in our own solitude time can give us a new direction.

Most of the times we just live like normal animals, undermining the strength of our mind. We play during childhood, then study, work, marry, bear kids, marry them off to others and then die alone - only to recognize that we have never lived. We never think that being alone is the best way to discover the most beautiful thing ever got created on this earth - OUR SOUL. Many times in our society a SOUL is regarded as a spirit , a ghost!! But have anybody thought that it is the most beautiful place to visit , where springs never dries out.

As an indian I am taught of 4 stages or ashrams of life , one of them is VANPRASTHA ASHRAM and SANYA ASHRAM. During this stages of life, when one grows old, he has to take up the path of sloitudeness in the forest and devote his remianing life to God.But why one have to take up this path in the end??why not through the journey of life??

I think that it is only in the silence of solitudeness we can hear the voices of our daily existence and see the truth that life reveals to us, which we conviently ignore in the company of others.

As quoted by Hans Margolius - Only in quiet waters do thing mirror themselves undistorted. Only in a quiet mind is adequate perception of the world.