Your time is limited!!

While I was reading a sad news of the demise of Mr. Steve Jobs, somebody whispered in my ears "Your time is limited". I looked back and there was no one but me in my cube and the poster that said "Your time is limited " hung in front of me.

I realize that my mind is talking to me and this time the thought really hit it hard. May be because , the world I was living in has changed suddenly. Not that Mr. Steve Jobs was really close to me (how I wish!) , but because to some extent I experienced the reality of non existent.

Till now I was living like there is no end, and infinite years / time to come. I was procrastinating lot of things , I always wanted to do, thinking that I will do this when some thing else happens. But today some how I am feeling like some one has awaken me from sleep.

There was time when things rarely changed so drastically.Always read about great dead people in history text books only. All difficult and life changing decisions made for you.

But now I hope I am awake and would really like to live as if

"Your(My) time is limited, so don't (want to) waste it living someone else's life, (and May I) have the courage to follow (my) your heart and intuition"

The unwritten letters

Each word says million things

But you never heard it.

Each thought left to tickle the happiness

But you never understood it.

Each letter written to convert miles into arms away

But you never replied to it.

Each expression to make you feel you are mine

But you never felt it.

Each letter written by my tears just for you

But you never read it.

To eat or not to eat!!

Well my fight with my weight is going on for a long time now...so much so that I feel "fight" might not be a correct word for it but "war" can be an appropriate one.And in this winning and loosing game ...(well for me most of the time it is gaining game...even though I prefer to loose [:)]) I have reached to a point where my ability to do mathematical calculations of calories has reached a far extreme. When ever I see food the only question that arise is "TO EAT OR NOT TO EAT" along with "100 cal+ 120 + 500= 720 so 1300 -720 = 580" etc etc.

Though when I look back..it does not seem so bad... as this has given me a unique quality of self control along with cautiousness about my well being....And had this not been forced on me by society, I would have still been the same old poor little Pooja whose food choices are mostly biased on the taste and not the contents in it. As this provides pleasure only for small amount of time and painful life ahead(with all diabetes, high BP and arteries clogging) ...Same as judging the person based on his/her outward appearance and not based on pure intentions and thoughts .

Solitude

The importance of solitude is seldom understood in our asian lives , though we are the biggest preacher of it. Most of the time, in the times of difficulty we try to find people to blame things on , to find support from or talk things out. But have we ever given a thought that talking to ourself can be the most rewarding thing. I agree that discussing things out with others do give us different perspective, but talking to ourself in our own solitude time can give us a new direction.

Most of the times we just live like normal animals, undermining the strength of our mind. We play during childhood, then study, work, marry, bear kids, marry them off to others and then die alone - only to recognize that we have never lived. We never think that being alone is the best way to discover the most beautiful thing ever got created on this earth - OUR SOUL. Many times in our society a SOUL is regarded as a spirit , a ghost!! But have anybody thought that it is the most beautiful place to visit , where springs never dries out.

As an indian I am taught of 4 stages or ashrams of life , one of them is VANPRASTHA ASHRAM and SANYA ASHRAM. During this stages of life, when one grows old, he has to take up the path of sloitudeness in the forest and devote his remianing life to God.But why one have to take up this path in the end??why not through the journey of life??

I think that it is only in the silence of solitudeness we can hear the voices of our daily existence and see the truth that life reveals to us, which we conviently ignore in the company of others.

As quoted by Hans Margolius - Only in quiet waters do thing mirror themselves undistorted. Only in a quiet mind is adequate perception of the world.